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    Looking Forward

    It has been a tough cycle. All 44 days of it.

    Yes, my last cycle was 44 days long. Not good. And not something that makes one hoping to get pregnant smile.

    In fact, a late period when you’re not pregnant, but hoping to be, is torture. Each day goes like this: Maybe I’m pregnant. Was that a menstrual cramp? When should I take the next home pregnancy test? And on, and on…

    So after three negative pregnancy tests, each two days apart, I let go of the pregnancy hope and started to wonder what’s wrong with my system.

    The speculation thoughts play over and over in my mind. I’m not running a randomized controlled trial with volunteers so all I can do is speculate. I’m simply listening to my body and keeping track of what changes I’ve made to my diet and lifestyle.

    The change this past cycle has been to start eating poultry. Did it affect my cycle length? Maybe my body needs an adjustment phase or maybe the diet change isn’t good. Or maybe my cycle length was affected by a factor completely out of my control.

    The thing about speculation theories, though, is that they want to monopolize my mind. And this is where I have stop and realize that mulling over everything doesn’t bring me closer to a solution. Taking down the facts and analyzing the situation is good, but once the mulling starts, it’s time to look forward.

    And this, I’ve found, is much easier and more effective with a written fertility plan. When I’ve reached the acceptance phase and am ready to look forward, I simply read my plan and begin a new therapy or am reminded that there are still options. This avoids the compulsive late night searches on the internet for solve-it-all herbs or quick-fix therapies. With a plan I feel empowered, and so yesterday I reached for my fertiliy plan.

    Mud baths are next up. I’ve done them before, and, in fact, it’s one of the many things I tried when I got pregnant for the first time at the beginning of this year (which turned out to be an ectopic pregnancy, blog: My First Pregnancy: A Miscarriage). This time I will not be staying overnight but instead traveling there three times a week to sit for ten minutes in a tub full of thick, black mud.

    I made my appointment for this week and I’m looking forward.

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