Taking a Break
Sometimes you just need a break.
Now is one of those times for me.
My hormone values fell last week, meaning that my miscarriage is probably not another ectopic pregnancy. Saying that I’m relieved doesn’t seem to cover it. I mean, to think that I’m sitting here typing away on my computer instead of lying in a hospital bed in pain from a surgery to remove an ectopic pregnancy absolutely overwhelms me with feelings of gratitude.
Except for a few more visits to the doctor – to make sure my hCG values return to zero – I consider this miscarriage to be behind me.
So why take a break from the whole infertility topic and trying to conceive?
Well, first of all, we aren’t allowed to try and conceive this cycle. Yes, after three and a half years of infertility we are supposed to use a condom. The irony. But OK, my doctor said that it’s important because a fertilized egg wouldn’t find the right kind of environment in my uterus right now. Makes sense.
So we have to wait until my next cycle (whenever that is) to try and conceive. But I also have to say that I don’t feel like diving into the infertility books right now to read or do research. I need a break. I plan to read and write about digestive health (enzymes and probiotics) – not how they directly relate to fertility but how they relate to overall health.
This isn’t just a decision that my body and soul wants but my life needs some serious organization at the moment since we just moved last Saturday (it would have been two weeks ago but the miscarriage delayed it). I love the new place, but the whole which-box-is-it-in phase is not one I want to be in permanently.
Today, I have a check-up appointment with my gynecologist for an ultrasound and to surrender my arm again to the prick of a needle. She said she wanted to discuss some infertility issues and procedures like checking again to see if my tubes are clear. This doesn’t really fit into my taking a break from the topic plan, but I have to be there for the check-up anyway so what’s an extra ten to twenty minutes?
Posted: March 5th, 2009 under Coping with Infertility, My 2nd Miscarriage.
Comments: 2
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Comment from susan
Time: March 11, 2009, 5:16 am
I appreciate all of the writing you have done to share your experience - which as of late has not been what you had hoped. On the other hand, you are clearly healing your body and guiding it in a positive direction…. all that regular medical doctors said could not happen.
I wonder, what probiotic and enzyme items/foods have you found to be most helpful? I have taken supplements for both of these but would love to know if there is a better way.
I will keep you in my thoughts.
Comment from admin
Time: March 11, 2009, 10:34 am
Hi Susan, thanks so much for your comment and your well wishes.
I’m researching and trying foods right now for the enzymes and probiotics.
For the enzymes I’m eating pineapple and papaya (in small amounts) and juicing raw vegetables. For the probiotics I’ve added tamari sauce, pickles and I plan on making some fermented foods (carrots and cabbage) next week. I also just started taking a gluten free probiotic supplement. I hoped to skip the supplement but since I haven’t gotten around to making the fermented foods I decided to start the probiotic supplements.
I’ll be posting blogs in the next two weeks about how all this goes.
Thanks again and all the best.
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